Necessary Discontent

If my recent posting have sounded rather vitriolic it was on purpose. But don't mistake it as me being pessimistic. I know it all sounds very pessimistic, but this is a necessary discontent. What I am exposing is what someone has to go through to wake up. What has happened is that we all have tricked ourselves (through the pervasiveness of fear) that things are all ok. When we start to feel a certain discontent, we start to push it down or make excuses and fall back asleep for a little while.

It's like we are fish swimming comfortably in the water where it is nice and warm and then because of external circumstances or something happens inside to push us near the surface of the water so that we can breathe fresh air, break free and become something different. But then fear comes along and puts the kibosh on finally breaking the surface of the water and we swim back down again without realizing what else is possible.

We have to actually cultivate our discontent so that we stop fooling ourselves. Finally get fed up with this low-level, mediocre status quo that human beings are content to live with from day to day. Wake up and finally see that we can't waste our time while we are alive doing things that are unsatisfactory. Stop pretending that there is this other horizon that we can get to someday. Because while we wait for that someday to come we fall back into the same patterns. Accept mediocrity and mindless distractions on our way back down to the bottom of the dark ocean.

So my vitriol has a purpose. A highly optimistic purpose of propelling myself out of the depths of the murky water and breaking the surface. I am angry at myself for being so foolish for so long for placing blindfolds over my eyes and living a fear-based existence. So this is it, come hell or high water I am envisioning something better, something honest, something to get excited about.