What I am writing about on this blog is extreme spirituality. And the only reason that I call it spirituality is because I don't have another word to call it. But it isn't spirituality in terms of believing in anything or finding a religion. You realize eventually that life IS spirituality. We are not something that is apart from things we associate with spirituality, like magic and grace.
What I am detailing is an engagement with life and finding out what is true for you. I call it extreme because you actually have to be willing to die for the cause. It sounds crazy and unbelievable unless you truly have become fed up with your life as you currently live it. If you are satisfied with your life and looking for a positive uplifting rather than a radical change, I definitely recommend NOT reading this blog. Eckhart Tolle and Deepak Chopra have written some great books about adding a spiritual dimension to your life that many people might enjoy.
What I am talking about here is a deconstruction of the ego. I define ego as the force powered by the energy of fear with the goal of continuing an illusion of separation. The illusion of separation is just that, an illusion. But the ego is a very tricky and sneaky force that is charged entirely by fear. Fear that the individual identity does not exist. I say that you have to be willing to die for this cause because that is really the only way that you can work yourself out of the driving force of egoic fear. Look closely and see how fear moves everything in the common way of life on earth.
Now, I am about as far away from suicide as a person can get. I have no desire at this point in time to end my life. However, if I had to go back to a way of life that was entirely controlled by fear, work in an unsatisfying job, live as if I perceived everything as separate from myself, I wouldn't bat an eye at the thought of ending my own life. This is the extreme part. It sounds negative and pessimistic, but it is really the opposite. When I glimpsed the reality of fear in my life, I knew I no longer wanted any part of it. I understood it was exactly the reason why I made so many unsatisfying choices in my life. But now that I have seen it, I know that I can't go back.
I have no guarantee that I would not have to come to a point where it would seem that I might have to make, once again, choices that are fear-based. However, I am fairly certain that my tolerance for that would be highly limited and the thought of death would seem much more attractive. But that is an amazing thing if you can see this. The reason why is because the fear that once fueled my actions is now being replaced by an amazing sense of awe and gratitude for life. Since I know that death is a much better option for me than to live my previous life, fear is being pushed out. Fear and ego that were so powerful in my life are now becoming only a flickering flame. Once death is seen as a viable, preferable option vs. a life run by fear, what is there to be afraid of?
So, that's why I say that this stuff may not be for you. If it isn't your heart's desire to end what you have going and truly see what life without fear can be like, then stop reading right now. If you are interested in killing your identity and living a life on the crest of a universal wave, then maybe this is the place you want to be.
This video is a good representation of how the ego works. Fear animates her and she exists as an exhibit for the gawkers, until she has had enough. Listen to the lyrics, she is over it and wants to be free at all costs. This is extreme spirituality.
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