Worthiness

Another way that we go about the insanity of separation is through the idea of worthiness. Am I worthy? I think many people, including me, have either considered this question consciously or unconsciously in their thoughts and actions. If you look deeply into the matter it really does become absurd. How could anyone not be worthy of anything? If you are still alive in this world that is your automatic pass at worthiness. As a matter of fact, the subject becomes a moot point once it is seen for what it is.

Many people may think that they have had influences in their lives that have caused them to feel a sense of unworthiness. Like you have to prove yourself somehow in the world in order to be accepted. Utter bullshit. Just look at it. Even if someone has treated you in a way that has made you feel unworthy, why do you continue to believe it?

I have noticed the ways in which I have proven to myself that I was operating from a place of feeling unworthy. Like being overly concerned with my appearance. Feeling that only if I look a certain way would I be proving my worth somehow in the world. This doesn't stand much scrutiny. Fear keeps this idea in place. What if I just allowed myself to be and look the way that I am rather than try to impress someone? Well the reason comes down to the underlying goal that drives us all: fear and separation. That is where we should turn our attention. Not towards what perfect clothes I can wear or how my body could look better if I do 100 more sit-ups.

This has been one of the biggest struggles for me. My ego fought back hard on this. I guess we all have things that our ego with fight us on, and this ego-trap was particularly sticky and only recently started to loosen its grip. I had to be willing to look at it. Grooming an image of ourselves for the world is an utter waste of our energy. Rather than thinking our appearance needs fixed look instead at how the fear of being worthy sticks its hand inside us and moves us around like puppets.

Are you worthy of being loved? Are you worthy of having your dreams come true? Of course you are.