Sin expectativas

One of the hardest things to put into practice is adapting to the way the universe works. I have been stubborn and foggy about it but it is definitely starting to come into focus. I see it in my life and other people's lives so clearly, but haven't put it completely into practice yet. It's an easy thing to do but we get caught up in mental loops, old habits, patterns, whatever.

Think about this: Think about the people in your life who you really are drawn to. The ones who it is fun to do things for and spend time with. For me, it usually is the people that are humble, grateful, and get a kick out of life. The ones that aren't insistent or clingy and really get surprised and thankful for what you do. Especially the ones without any expectations.

It's been a tricky road to navigate for me because sometimes your desire for something is really strong and you get kind of wrapped up about it or obsessed in the expectation and almost a demand for it to manifest in your life. On the other hand sometimes people are scared of something and do things to push them away or kinda block it out of awareness. And that, I have come to understand directly, are the ways that you really spin your wheels and never get those things that you want.

I've heard often that every seemingly separate part of life contains the whole and it makes sense in this case. I look at the kind of people that I am drawn to and understand that that is exactly a mirror of how I must treat life. Open-hearted, joyous, thankful, and empty of all expectation. It is easy to say, but kinda tough to start out doing it, but gets easier with practice. If you have a strong desire for something, let it be known, takes steps towards it and then release it. Be patient, breathe, give it time. There is a paradox here that is interesting to note. It's like you want something but then have to figure out how to be ok without it and still go about being appreciative for everything else that is in front of you. The other part, at least for me, is that it is really tough for you to see it unless you start doing it.  It's a 2 steps forward 1 step back type of thing, but then suddenly it clicks and becomes the way you live your life.