First of thanks to Gearoto and James for the words of support. It really makes a difference to know that people support this thing despite the common perception of it being crazy, irresponsible, etc.
Which leads me to my post now which is to say that I am headed down to Big Sur today to a campground. I need to battle a couple of demons.
The first demon is my loneliness demon which I didn't expect, but nonetheless he has revealed himself to me and I must go have a heart to heart with him.
The other demon is my skeptical demon. He's been hiding in the background for a little while, but I am gonna have to go in and see what he is all about. He's gotten some strength based on a few whisperings of people that either think I am crazy, off the deep end or whatever.
I don't have any illusions that this skeptical demon doesn't exist. But I wouldn't have taken this journey had I not had some experience with some unbelievable things. I am not fooling myself here, guys. I know how preposterous it all seems. I know about the comfort of having a job, friends, family, support system all in place so that you sleep easy at night and not have to worry about the basic necessities of survival. I get it. But that isn't what this is all about. This is about the commitment of one person going out into the world and throwing the support system out the window, just to see if it can be done. I don't know whether it works or not but I am going to find out.
This world is being crushed with the idea that we have to fight and struggle to get by. To fight the forces that are outside of you. Look at the whole Occupy Wallstreet phenomena. People fighting a giant demon on the outside. Blaming a corrupt system. Blaming somebody else for what is wrong with their lives. Well I am SO tired of that. I am not going to fight someone or something outside of me. If that is what life is about, then I forfeit. The responsibility of our lives is our own. I am done looking elsewhere. This is an inside job. I have a glimpse of what is really going on and it starts by looking hard at our own lives.
This journey is about stopping the endless cycle of blame and looking for outside approval. What can one person do to take responsibility for their own life and have it become truly satisfying? That is what I am doing. And the idea of sharing with the world so that other people can go out and do the same thing is what is truly inspiring to me.
So I may be a little quiet on this blog for a day or 2, but I shall return! I may not have access to answer emails or text, but be sure that I am ok and that you will hear from me soon! Love you guys!!! Thanks so much again to all of those people who are wishing me well. It keeps me going.
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